#87 - It’s not at all rare for me to feel ignored
Actually, it’s pretty common. I don’t know if I don’t talk loud enough, or clear enough. I don’t know if my words of choice are boring, or if my voice is annoying.The fact is: it’s not at all uncommon that my words fall on deaf ears, and people blatantly ignore what I’m saying. It’s like my voice falls into the cracks. It happens with family members, friends, acquaintances, complete strangers. It happens in many different situations, through all kinds of topics, all times of the day.
I have no idea why it happens, it just does. Still, it feels awful every time. I’m there talking, sometimes answering a question, and even when the subject at hand IS of the other party’s interest, they still manage to pay attention to anything else at all, and suddenly there I am, speaking to myself. Oftentimes people just think it’s ok to cut me in the middle of my sentence to talk about something else entirely - sometimes with me, but in general with someone else.
It’s a terrible feeling, I gotta tell you. It kills. It’s the worst.
And I gave up trying to make it stop, to make people pay attention to me. When I used to do it, people would say I’m being overly dramatic, or to stop taking it so seriously. So now I don’t even try anymore. I just stand up and go do something else.
Most of the time people don’t even notice.